It bubbles and boils beneath my skin. It laughs mockingly, knowing my power over it may simply only be temporary. It tingles as it burns through my arteries. It waits in front of the locked door awaiting its triumphant return. He knows the moment he steps through the door; I will be at his mercy. [...]
To those who feel hollow: you are not alone. I know you hear this constantly. It is repeated in the media. Hotlines are thrown at you left and right. You think, "as if a phone call will be able to fill this emptiness inside me." People say, "I am here for you" but they can't [...]
2017, I’m afraid to say goodbye. You gave me the best year of my entire life. Truly. It was a year of triumph, success, and pay off. I can not thank you enough for showing me what life is truly supposed to feel like. Fifteen years of being chronically sick with my mental illness and [...]
It is officially OCD Awareness Week! Yay! To celebrate, I want to address some misconceptions, useful facts, and where you can go if you want to learn more about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Education is key to ending the mental health stigma! First and foremost, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is not a "quirk" everyone has. You can not [...]
I am going to take you back in time. We are in the Fall of 2007. My parents only child has been very sick now for four years. She was diagnosed with Severe Tourette Syndrome in third grade. She has been on over 50 different medications. None of them easing the terror of the nights [...]
It is crazy to think I have been living in Brooklyn for almost a month now. I have just fallen in love. I love the people - who are not the rude New Yorkers you hear about on TV. I love the beauty of the buildings. I never thought of buildings as art until I was [...]
Mortality is a topic that recently popped into my mind very late at night. I am someone who has always suffered in the present. OCD, Anxiety, you name it. Looking towards a better future is my way of coping with my struggles. "Tomorrow will be a better day" "When I'm a psychologist I can help [...]
For a while now, I have been on the schedule of showering once every three to five days. Showering continues to be a struggle due to my OCD. The process of showering is a chore for me. Having to undress, get all wet, wash my hair and put conditioner in it, dry off, brush my [...]
I have always been one for fresh starts. My go-to saying was, "this week is a new week, I'm starting over." By doing this, I seemed to expect everything to be better. I expected smooth sailing. When the time came that I would fall back into my unhealthy habits, I would become disappointed in myself, [...]
There is exactly one month until I graduate from College! It is an unthinkable accomplishment if you look back on my early teenage years. A time where graduating middle school didn't seem like a possibility. A time where I had to live day by day. A time where I had to push the thoughts of helping [...]
